I want to explain to you what depression is like. I used to think that I knew what it was. I thought that being sad, and miserable, and lonely and dark is what depression is. Then I realized that it’s something even scarier than that. You think you’re normal. Go about your normal routine. Life continues on. You don’t have anything on for the holidays, and then it hits you. You kept going, through school or work, just to survive but inside you felt depressed. The problem is that once you feel it for so long, you forget what it even feels like. All that you know is that you want to sleep, and that you just don’t feel like anything matters.
Part of me still loves life. Part of me cares, but the rest of me just can’t handle life. The only thing that I know is consistent is that I hear ‘You’ll never be good enough’. All I really want is a friend. Someone that won’t judge me. Someone that will tell me that they believe in me no matter what, even though I’m going through a hard patch at the moment.
To those of you that have a similar struggle, I want you to know that you’re not alone. Your pain is real and it doesn’t matter what anyone thinks. Just keep going and you’ll get through. Maybe whilst we are both lost on our paths, we will find each other on a new path. No matter how hard the road seems, it’s always better when there’s someone there for the trip.
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